I still think I’m suffering from depression a bit. or I’m an attention whore. But the latter is unlikely.
If only I wasn’t so tired all the time.
This is where I complain about my petty problems and feel bad for myself
I want to stab the fucker
Itd be so damn easy
So fucking easy
I just dont want to go to jail
“Money matters more than your health”
-my dad
basically, this fucking prick always finds a way to make me feel terrible, to set himself up as right and me as wrong, and make everything my fault. everything is my fucking fault. fucking everything
god damn it why can’t i just die
FUCKING KILL ME
I WANT TO FUCKING DIE.
FUCK
i dont want to keep living with this fuck
Fuck these internal conflicts
Big part of me: cut
Smaller part: don’t
Repeat ad infinitum
Up until like, sunday i hadnt really had a serious urge for a WHILE and now shit’s back. FUCK.
I’m no longer just unfeeling and angry. The sadness is back. Fuck this shit
Post reblogged from A Bitching British Kid. with 3 notes
oh my god my life isn’t really shitty anymore.
Saaaaaamee
Except it seems to be restarting but w/eeeeeeevsAlso gtfo and get some sleeps
You misunderstand.
I’m not tired as in lack of sleep.
I’m just
tired.
Youre right
I dont understand D:
*hugs*
Source: tiredofgettingoutofbed
Post reblogged from A Bitching British Kid. with 3 notes
oh my god my life isn’t really shitty anymore.
I still think I’m suffering from depression a bit. or I’m an attention whore. But the latter is unlikely.
If only I wasn’t so tired all the time.
Saaaaaamee
Except it seems to be restarting but w/eeeeeeevs
Also gtfo and get some sleeps
Source: tiredofgettingoutofbed
Lol its happening again
>tired af
>try to sleep
>fuck you robert i hate you
Silly me, now is not the time to bring out your self hatred! Im tryina sleep here! Im tired! You waited like a month or two. Sure you can’t wait more?
Scratch that
I CAN cry but only at stupid shit such as the Homestuck video for the pony song Discord
I have a complete and total inability to cry.
—
-Dude from Sea Wall
Well i know that fucking feel bro. I know it too well. i want to fucking sob but i fucking CANT
So, like, am I healthy now? Is that what happened?
I mean, that’s cool and all but now i feel like kind of an ass for sobbing and crying and yadda yadda so much :/
I mean, i haven’t cried or felt too down since, well, the last time i said i did on this blog. I mean, im angrier than usual, and don’t really /feel/ as much as i used to, but that’s a good thing right?
can i like, move on with life maybe?
then again i feel like i didnt even do anything to change (thats cuz i didnt). so it feels kinda bs y somehow. also boring. i guess some part of me wants to be that special snowflake that can baww and everyone will feel bad for. But thankfully the majority of me is like “dude fuck you” and so yeah.
Not saying that people with actual problems are special snowflakes or attention whores or anything, no. Also not saying that that was the purpose of this blog, or that i ever used this blog for attention, i didn’t. but yeah.
so i guess, ill try to move on with life? whatever that means… w/e ill see how it goes, lol
Nothin’s changed from a couple months ago or so
Well, one thing
Now
My reaction to everything is not “wah”
It is anger
And i have NO FUCKING WAY TO VENT THIS SHIT EVER FUCKFUCK
FUCK
FUCK EVERYHING
FUCK IT ALL SO MUCH
- *dog starts whining randomly as he does*
- Mom (from other room): what? D:
- *dog leads mom to my room*
- Mom: what did you do, Robert?
- Me, defensive and annoyed: Why's it always ME who dors something eh?
- Me (inside): HOLY SHIT FUCK YOU WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU GET THE FUCK OUT
Ive noticed recently
These past few days, i mean, ive been feeling less sadness and more rage
Guess what: that anger is only there when im at home with my dickwad parents
Edit: looks like its a symptom of depression
GODDAMN IT WHY WONT THIS PIECE OF SHIT GO THE FUCK AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE
Wow WTF
I caught myself entertaining the thought of cutting myself just to spite my parents
Wtf |:
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